My life

I guess I have not written in here in a very long time. I am still with Kelly and on the 25th we celebrated our second year together and I was a blast. I have been spending a lot of time thinking about what I want to be when I grow up ! And ya know what I dont have a clue. I am enjoying just living day by day but I am not going to be able to live like that forever I mean what would I do if all of a sudden I got pregnant? I cant afford a child and I am sure in the hell not going to live off of welfare thats just not my style. I believe that if you are going to have a child you should get a damn job to support that child instead of the rest of the people who pay taxes paying for these unemployed teenage mothers to have babies. I dont respect that one bit however I do respect the teenage mothers who go out and get jobs even though they might need help from welfare they still are out there trying instead of sitting on thier asses.Any who done with that next comes do I want to be a CNA for the rest of my life? No I dont but I Cant go back to school now because I cant afford that shit. So what do I do I work at a job where I do more work than any one ther I have to be state certified and yet my best friend makes more money than I do managing KFC. Fucked up huh. But thats how this world works and thats why I just want to move to canada because they have everything there . The country pays for your medical Sweet. Dont get me wrong I am a republican all the way I just get fed up with some of the shit Although librals can suck a fat one because they are the reason this world is soo fucked up in the first place. but I wont go in to that so any way I dont really have much to say except for that I work too much and dont play enough. Being an adult licks a butt.

On May 25th I lost a good friend he died in a horrible car accident out on the ocean shores hiway i just want to let everyone know that the person we lost was Quincy Allen Shaw. I dont know how many of our friends know but if you read this he is burried at the top of the cemetery in Hoquiam. It was a beautiful service and he will greatly be missed. If anyone knows how to get ahold of Damon or Chino please let them know I dont think anyone was able to reach them to notify them of this tradgety . To everyone else who has to drive that road please be careful .

Love me

So yesterday was a good day I got to see sammy's baby mateo and he is the cutest baby ever. I also went  and saw Dale which was neat. My job is going ok but its really stressful I never anticipated how stressful this job could be but it is. Kelly and I are doing great he just got a job at the casino as a full time security gaurd out there so that is cool and thats about all the news I have for  now

so yeah I am so in love with my bf and iono I just am enjoying life

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

so its been a long time but I did get my cna job up at ghhr and I love it for the most part. Kelly and I moved into our own house together at the end of march and its so increadable we love living together. The bad thing is that I miss all my friends like rachel kelsey peggy maria dale eric those are the ones I miss the most . I never see anyone anymore it sucks. so all of you need to find a way to get a hold of me like dale and eric can ask maria covall for my number and call me the other ones have my number so use it

well anyways thats about all the good news in my life right now so yea.

Well I got into my class that I was hoping for I nailed my interview whoo hoo  so I start monday at 8 in the morning and train for three weeks then I am hired as a full time cna... Kelly and I are looking at houses and I think we found the one so hopefully we can afford it haha.. so yea that is it for now ttyl8r

This week has been such a blast. Kelly and I spent a lot of our time together just laughing and enjoying each others company. We went to the gym and worked out which I have been doing very regularly since I am now fat and I have never been the fat girl but on a plus side I lost 5 pounds last week and hopefully will continue this loosing streak so that I can be back to my old skinny self again.

Kelly and I got in an argument last night because he thinks I am going to leave him because I can do soo much better. Which is crap. Anyone that knows me will tell you that without a doubt kelly is the best boyfriend that I have ever had. He is the first guy I have ever been with who actually cares about me and my life. He asked me the other day if I thought that he was the one and I was like are you kidding how many times do I have to tell you that I know that we are going to spend the rest of our lives together. Yeah kel and I fight but when the argument is over we are fine and tell each other how sorry we are and how we don't like to fight with each other. I know it sounds really corny but I really am happy with him. For the first time in years I feel like I have the right guy. Does that sound stupid. I know I have thought before that I was with the right guy but I have never been in a relationship for this long I always find fault in the person and with kelly we just click.

Kat I was soo happy to see you last night when you came into work you look soo good that it is unbelievable. Whats you secrete chick. haha I cant wait to hang out with you again soon for longer than five minutes we have to have more time to talk crap about a certain friend who really wasnt a good friend at all to us.... but yeah. Well I am going to go to  bed because I have to get up in the morning and go to tacoma with my aund Deb who btw is going to be my maid of honor when i get married in a couple years. And then when I get home tomarrow I have to go to Grays Harbor Health and Rehab for an application into the CNA program so that I can get my training and go to work..

Well thats all for now...........Goodnight.

This past week I have been thinking alot about my future with kelly and I honestly cant see myself with anyone else but him. We are so alike and yet so different that we balance each other perfectly. I cant see myself with anyone else but him......I mean it isnt always all roses but most of the time it is. I am going to go to the hospital in a month or a month in a half because they will pay for my cna training and then I will work for them for a year and make some good money.. school just wasnt for me but I still want to do something in the medical feild. I really just want to get married and start a family . I want to start having kids and being a mom because to me that is the best job in the world...

Kathy to you my dear friend I have missed you soo much I hope you and I can get together soon and talk about all the stuff we have missed this last year you and I got so close at the end and I hope we can regain that closeness. I hope things are working out with your boy.

To all the people that I hurt while trying to figure out who I was I am sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me.....